I haven't blogged in what seems like forever so I thought I
would post a bit of an update. About a month ago I was hospitalized again. I
initially went to the emergency room thinking I had bronchitis or pneumonias
because I was experiencing congestion and was having trouble breathing. At that
point in time I had been dealing with the return of my acid reflux as well. I
was getting sick almost nightly and on medication to help keep food down, if
possible. It all started to become clear when the tech that was taking x-rays
of my chest suddenly yelled, “What the heck is that?” Not exactly what you want
to hear after an x-ray. As it turns out my stomach had moved up into my chest cavity
and was pressing on my heart, lungs, and against my spine. It became clear that
I needed to have surgery for a second time in little over a year. Because this
was my second surgery, there was a lot of scar tissue and it could not be done
endoscopically. I was also incredibly malnourished which made surgery even more
risky. Thankfully, I was transferred to a hospital in Dallas with a surgeon
that put my concerns at ease. I was on something called TPN for about a week
before surgery. I could not hold down food so I had to have an 18ga IV of nutrients
that went directly from my upper arm into my chest. It provided all the nutrition
I would need and even had a handy port for drawing blood so that I would not
need to be stuck often.
The surgery itself was extensive. Again, because this was my
second go, I would need a larger incision that would go from the bottom of my
chest to my belly button. The surgeon opened me up, brought my stomach down,
wrapped my esophagus, and inserted a pig skin mesh to keep my stomach in place.
To be honest, it felt completely like a horror film.
Recover has also been difficult. Ultimately, I spent three
weeks in the hospital. As a result, I had to withdraw from my classes and am
currently in the process of paying back financial aid. Emotionally, this has
been a real struggle because I had formed an identity around being a student
and I was so close to the finish line. This was going to be my last semester
before my AA and considering I had obtained my GED and spent the last 2 years
being an A student, it has been difficult to swallow.
Physical recovery
has been difficult as well. I left the hospital with twelve metal staples down
the middle of my abdomen. You really never think about how much you use your
muscles until you lose the ability to. I had to learn how to do simply things
like using my legs and arms to push up from a chair. As a person with limited
mobility already this has been a nightmare. I cannot use the walker I am familiar
with because I cannot walk with my arms in front of me. I have to use a “granny
style” walker instead. I also have to use an oversized wheelchair that dwarfs
my small frame. My muscles are still really weak and wheelchair I currently use
is so big that I have to rely on someone to push me. My insurance will not
cover the style of wheelchair I want and at over $2,000 it is too much for me
to afford on my own. I am still waiting to see how much of my hospital stay my
insurance will cover. The hospital estimate that was sent to my home is about $94,000.
I am overwhelmed financially,
emotionally, and physically.
Thankfully, I have amazing people in my life and a friend of
mine started a gofundme to help lessen the financial burden I am facing. We have
raised over 900 dollars so far! The money I owed the school was $925 but gofundme
also takes a cut of whatever you raise. If you would like to donate please click
the link below. If you are reading this and have already donated, I am beyond
grateful. Thank you.
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